What will I be?

Where will I be in 20 years time?

What would it be like? Who would remain in my life? Would I still be beside you? Questions like these have been boggling my mind since forever. 

But as I let insecurities fill me up to the brim, I come to face with a fact that, I was thinking about a future with you the whole time. I guess, that's all that matters right? That your future included your partner. 

The thing I really hate about Long Distance Relationships is really the lack of physical touch in a relationship. Like what I read on my friend's blog and tweeted, "Sometimes, a single touch is all we need. But I am here and you are there." So true isn't it? 

Sometimes a quarrel can just end by a hug, or a slight touch of the shoulder, or a kiss. But the long distance just makes things worse. Not only you can't end the quarrel, the lack of physical touch brings up more things to quarrel about. 

Well, I just paused this blog post to talk to my boyfriend on Skype. I guess, when both of you are in good mood, there is really nothing to pick on. And you really just tend to forget all the bad stuff. If only the good mood can last forever. 

This is the woman who breathed life into me :) Dearest mommy.

Needed a picture to change the tone so decided to show you guys my mommy. Love her so much but I often to the actions that portray the direct opposite. Sigh. Why am I always this rebellious.

But somehow, I have gotten closer to my family members as I grow older. And especially my male cousin :) Talked to him today over Facebook Chat about what should I pursue in audit and all. He gave me pretty useful advice and I can feel that he is trying to make my internship a fruitful one rather than doing meaningless tasks of photocopying documents. Of course, people are need to do the photocopying. But I guess you wouldn't learn as much right. That doesn't mean I get to jump the ranks though. Start from scratch is the way to learn. 

Right, start from scratch is the way to learn. How did I get that thought instilled in me? Ah right, when I still dreamed of working in a hotel. And you know people who work in the tourism and hospitality industry, they have to start off as chambermaids, hotel receptionists, ground crew in theme parks etc. Yeah, that's how I got that idea instilled in me. And I am glad for that dream.

Am still intending to pursue this dream. Maybe an accountant in a hotel? Or theme park when I get enough experience? Well, we'll never know what the future plays out for us.

As of now, as of this moment, I am pretty excited for my internship to start. To finally know what it really is like to work in an audit firm. What is it like to be slogging your guts out. Well, I may complain, but I know I will survive. In the end, I always do right? 

And why am I so confident of surviving? Because I am Inez Lau. 

Nah, just kidding. Because of what my dad told me in passing when I was young. "Be the best that you can be in whatever you do. So you, get to choose." 

Alright, what a ... random post? 

Well, this is to document my growth I guess? Goodnights all. Xoxo