What will I be?

Where will I be in 20 years time?

What would it be like? Who would remain in my life? Would I still be beside you? Questions like these have been boggling my mind since forever. 

But as I let insecurities fill me up to the brim, I come to face with a fact that, I was thinking about a future with you the whole time. I guess, that's all that matters right? That your future included your partner. 

The thing I really hate about Long Distance Relationships is really the lack of physical touch in a relationship. Like what I read on my friend's blog and tweeted, "Sometimes, a single touch is all we need. But I am here and you are there." So true isn't it? 

Sometimes a quarrel can just end by a hug, or a slight touch of the shoulder, or a kiss. But the long distance just makes things worse. Not only you can't end the quarrel, the lack of physical touch brings up more things to quarrel about. 

Well, I just paused this blog post to talk to my boyfriend on Skype. I guess, when both of you are in good mood, there is really nothing to pick on. And you really just tend to forget all the bad stuff. If only the good mood can last forever. 

This is the woman who breathed life into me :) Dearest mommy.

Needed a picture to change the tone so decided to show you guys my mommy. Love her so much but I often to the actions that portray the direct opposite. Sigh. Why am I always this rebellious.

But somehow, I have gotten closer to my family members as I grow older. And especially my male cousin :) Talked to him today over Facebook Chat about what should I pursue in audit and all. He gave me pretty useful advice and I can feel that he is trying to make my internship a fruitful one rather than doing meaningless tasks of photocopying documents. Of course, people are need to do the photocopying. But I guess you wouldn't learn as much right. That doesn't mean I get to jump the ranks though. Start from scratch is the way to learn. 

Right, start from scratch is the way to learn. How did I get that thought instilled in me? Ah right, when I still dreamed of working in a hotel. And you know people who work in the tourism and hospitality industry, they have to start off as chambermaids, hotel receptionists, ground crew in theme parks etc. Yeah, that's how I got that idea instilled in me. And I am glad for that dream.

Am still intending to pursue this dream. Maybe an accountant in a hotel? Or theme park when I get enough experience? Well, we'll never know what the future plays out for us.

As of now, as of this moment, I am pretty excited for my internship to start. To finally know what it really is like to work in an audit firm. What is it like to be slogging your guts out. Well, I may complain, but I know I will survive. In the end, I always do right? 

And why am I so confident of surviving? Because I am Inez Lau. 

Nah, just kidding. Because of what my dad told me in passing when I was young. "Be the best that you can be in whatever you do. So you, get to choose." 

Alright, what a ... random post? 

Well, this is to document my growth I guess? Goodnights all. Xoxo

Some update on my life!

Been hell of a busy these few weeks because boyfriend came from 24 February to 28 Feburary. Before he came was midterms week. After he went back to Singapore, it was also midterms week. Can you imagine the distress I was in, knowing that there was no time to study? (Okay okay, I know I am on exchange and pass/fail system.) But the things that I am learning are all like year 3 modules. You can't blame me for being a little more panicky right? (And that's just me aye?)

And, my parents came from 2 March to 9 March. So..... Busy with bringing them around. Advantage is, I get to spend time with them and finally speak in SINGLISH after so long. I am not exactly very close to the other Singaporeans on exchange so yeap. I usually speak with the Taiwanese in Mandarin or with Americans and Canadians in English (proper English). 

Okay, going to start with the parents trip first! WHOOP! 

Thought this is a really cute picture. Gotta say my parents are so lovely for coming here to visit me and bringing some of my stuff back to Singapore first. Much love to them!!!! (I don't usually express my love to them cos I am born in a very traditional Asian family. So no hugs no kisses no nothing)

Cute picture of me and a Cable Car sample from... France I think?

Act cute~~ (Too influenced by this American exchange student) But okay la, quite cute la hor?

The Giant Buddha is so far away. I actually typed "fucking" in that sentence just now but I deleted it. Somehow fucking and Buddha in the same sentence is weird.

What my parents and I did were mainly to visit the temples in Hong Kong. Didn't really sight see much because we have been to Hong Kong before. But they went up to the wax museum which we didn't go last time (I didn't go with them)

OH! Good thing about parents being here, is that ...... I DON'T HAVE TO PAY FOR MY FOOD! Om nom nomz. Ate so much good stuff like Tim Ho Wan Dim Sum, Yung Kee Roasted Goose and yada yada~~ /drools while thinking of it now. 

And so now...... I am going to talk about the Boyfriend's trip to Hong Kong! WHOOOHOOOOO

Ocean park! Cute hor? Heehee. I love Ocean Park because of all the rides. The rest of the shows were like soso~~ We didn't really watch the shows since we were only at Ocean Park for half a day!

He was technically only here for 3 full days. So sad. One day Macau, one day Ocean Park, one day anyhow walk around then NO MORE! :'( Really can cry. Small face slut :D 

Favourite picture of the lot though I think I look ohmega cui! :D 

Casino Venetian! :D Really like Marina Bay Sands inside. We won about HKD300 in total! Whee!

On the ferry to Macau~~ (: He kept playing his rugby game and ignoring me though. What an asshole. Oh anyway, we kept squabbling the whole trip. I don't know why! But there are just so many things that I will nag about and soon he will be annoyed. Sigh :( 

And that's the end of the cute photos I have for the trip. More on Facebook but I kinda don't really want to spam here. This is just a space for me to record what I have been doing in the land of dim sum. 

You know the feeling of wanting your boyfriend to show that he loves you more? I keep getting that feeling lately but I guess we all need to realise that different people love in a different way? Like just because he doesn't outrightly express his love for you doesn't mean that he loves you any lesser than you do. 

Well, that was just food for thought.

Ending with a picture of me studying in between my boyfriend's trip and my parents' trip. So far, my midterms results has proven that with about 40% effort, I can still do not bad. So let's keep it that way and I will have more time to play

Going to do nails in the afternoon (bought a whole package of 5 treatments at S$50) and then we are going to Shenzhen for massageeee and shopping. Whoop! Life is good :D 

Okay goodbye my friends, if any of you are still reading this space! :D