Selfishness

I'm generally a very selfish person. In a sense, I don't like to lose out so I don't put in additional effort to please others or go extremely out of the way.

I made a very selfish and annoying statement to the boyfriend last night. He was saying how can I not go to the airport to pick him up etc. And I was like, but I'm already spending sgd200 to share hotel w you!!!

After thinking about it, isnt it a v selfish statement? I mean, my Boyf has already spent more than sgd400 just to come to hk to find me. It's not like he exceptionally like honking or what. He doesnt even like shopping or anything like that so why would he even want to come to hk for a holiday. It has got to be mostly because of me right.

Sigh and as I think till this point, I can't help but to feel extremely disgusted by my selfishness. How can I focus on my myself and I if I ever want to last long w him?

Filled w disgusted feeling now and I hope dance will help me sweat it out later.

New resolution: be a more selfless person towards everyone around me. Especially my cherished ones who are my family, the boyfriend and my close friends.


And this ends a very wordy blog post. While typing, I've reached my station. I love all you all no matter how selfish i seem ok. I'm sorry and I'll try my best to change in this year!!!